Firstly, June was full of surprise. My trademark went unopposed for thirty days, which is the most incredible thing to ever happen to me and my brand. Hands down. Single-handedly. Ever. This means I have a real fighting chance of owning a registered trademark company in the United States. This is a tremendous opportunity and for me one of the greatest achievements of my life! I will keep you updated on the results.
Secondly, I am gaining more insight and developing a better perspective on my neighbors and surroundings in this city. My popularity is growing like wildfire. Not only am I being recognized more wherever I go, word about my brand is spreading all over Los Angeles. A routine trip to the post office, leads to a new person becoming aware of my products and a new order in the inbox. This happened yesterday.
With this newfound recognition, comes more praise and inevitably more jealousy. It is a common human emotion, we've all felt. This can be used an excuse for the comments, scrutiny, discrimination, and disrespect sent my way so far this year, but I have learned to deal with it better. I'll only address these surreptitious behaviors briefly. As part of my newfound clarity, I've arrived at the understanding that the less attention returned to those nameless and anonymous harassers the better for all parties involved.
We can all ascertain they view me as a celebrity. Unbeknownst to them or not, they seek attention daily. This includes behaviors such as: screaming my name, spying in my windows, monitoring my routines, commenting on the mundane and calling attention to EVERYTHING seen, heard and/or perceived etc. etc. etc. As you may have guessed, as the end of the month approached, and the blog was likely to be published, there was an uptick in the antics.
Their behaviors haven't changed, in fact they're provocations have increased, I've simply learned to not give a f*ck. Instead, I'm more focused on my actual accomplishments, my real experiences, and all the positive feedback from my many supporters and growing audience. This is a big deal for a Brooklyn girl like myself. Stay tuned for the best that is on the way. I'm manifesting!
Thirdly, I mentioned that I would introduce raw veganism this month. I did a 90 day cleanse last August, September and October 2020 before making the cross country trek. Since then I've decided it would be most beneficial to live a life that is mostly raw vegan. This means, consuming daily meals comprised in large part of raw fruits, vegetables, nuts, seeds, sprouted beans and legumes. Eating predominately raw foods, meaning for most meals everyday is my favorite routine. I will dedicate an entire blog, or perhaps create a food diary to provide for greater insight and to share more of what has helped to accomplish this newfound sense of inner peace.
Fourthly, I will share some more images below of the most spontaneous and fun day trip to Palm Springs and Joshua Tree National Park. This was undoubtedly the highlight of the month. I spent a day being pampered and treated. Temperatures rose to about 106 degrees and the warmth felt incredible on my skin. It was my first great adventure in the State of California and I simply cannot wait to revisit. See below pictures of the fun time.
Lastly, I've included a poem. Yes, a poem... I almost didn't write one. I thought, there are so many distractions with Joshua Tree, this month there's no need for a poem. I also felt pressure to be profound, as I heard people discussing whether or not it would be "profound." Then I remembered it was my favorite form of expression and part of the most necessary creative catharsis. Needless to say, I'm most proud of this one. It's brand new. Check it out. Until next month, stay humble.
Jalouse: Tout de Suite
Here lies a place
a haven
an abode
and a sanctuary
Then I ask myself, why aren’t you home yet?
These empty walls speak paramount
Truths too hard to decipher
I imagine all the lies you’ve woven
Thy deceptions exchanged in confidence
Does my ambivalence offend you?
I’d ask if you fucked her
Unanswered questions.
Reminders too painful on my chest
Your version of events, still won’t add up
How’d I let you do this to me again?
I’m so fucking in love with you!
I left more humble gestures on the nightstand
I used to languor in the resilience
Of this everlasting romance
Why does forever seem so much further this time around?
I hate it when we fight
I need more from this arrangement
You can’t expect me to continue looking the other way
I can’t do this anymore
Baby, are you still there?
We go through this every time
I told you I wanna be your wife
Those other guys meant nothing
Wait I’ll explain...
How much longer will you be?
I waited hours to see you smile again
Let me run my fingers through your beard one more time
How I love the texture of our romance
You’ve helped me, let my guard down
Baby will you still love me, when I’m not young and cutiefull?
I know you hate that reference
Sing it for me, une autre fois.
I want you to caress my body, undress me slowly
Stare into my eyes and confess your love for me
What time should I anticipate your embrace?
I told you I’m still abstinent
I relish in your patience
Sing me songs
And I’ll write you poetry
Is that you at the door?
Kiss me slowly
I can’t wait to be your Mrs.
I am the queen of seduction
You are the pharaoh of my heart
Is there any love greater than this?
What’s mine is yours
Yours is ours
Cliché, trite and overdone
Yet it’s all I’ll require after this exchange
I thought you said you were on the way?
I’m falling asleep now,
I hope you make it back tout de suite
I promise to make you 🥞 pancakes in the morning
Still no promises on the ETA
Why is my devotion to you so blinding?
It’ll take a ring and commitment
To prove I’m dedicated to you only
I’ll never leave you again
It was just pretend last time
Do you need to hear me say eternity, forevermore?
I thought I heard keys jangling
You brought me flowers again
Place them next to the peonies
I guess we should hang up now.
Am I a fool to keep letting you back in?
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